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2007-01-05T15:25:00.000+08:00

a lot of things has changed.

so please link and view me at my new blog.

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-love love love-

2006-07-22T11:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday, i went out with Arin. He's nice and really sweet. Though i kinda thought of somethings in my past but i know i have to push it away. He's gestures reminded me of him... When were still loving... haiz... then the song came up.... and i kinda felt wrong for no reason. But what the hell... at least Arin is a nice guy. There's still more to know and expect. I guess trying is a good start... For i dont see the point of even thinking bt him anymore. He's bound to be happier this way... But the reasons i found out were really unreasonable. Even my confidanté and my brother&sista says so. Well, i guess "cinta sejati tidak berpihak...pada kita". I dont even want to bother but it gets irritating when i push it away, the more my mind gets 'eaten'...

but to think of it proply... it's more irritating for a loved one to actually follow what other ppl says... to have loved someone who cant even defend you because he dont trust you fully... to have loved someone who see things in the judgement of others and not the ways he is shown the love and attention that his lover gave and somehow still gives.. to have love someone who do not have faith in you.. to have loved someone who has friends who think that they know who you are from the superficial... to have loved someone who is soo shallow minded... and to have love someone who gives more belief and attention to other ppl instead of you....

it's hurtful to have loved someone who says he wont disappear when he did... but it's all in the past now............
goodbye my lover.... i shoulda have let you go on that day i really felt lyk so... even tho it meant breaking my promise... but no matter... at least i kept my promise....

*to live to the fullest.to love unconditionally.to be happy without a price*

2006-07-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

well well... goodness gracious is all i can say... anyway, it's abt time to meet the guys!! haha... i really feel much able to accept things this way! yay... socialising will be the best bet to overcome my frustrations. anyway, to u... (not the same guy that i use U) well... if i give u the chance again and i end up hurting you, i really will feel sorry... it's you who wanna take the risk. but anywayz... there's no harm trying again but i really will feel bad... the worry you have abt me and my recent ex? hmmz... i dont think you should worry bt it anymore... cos there really is nothing b/w me and him already.. my socialising part wont harm you becos you urself are a social butterfly, so you know how things work.. and well but this time you just have to let things be this way. i cant promise you alot but i will try. if you spoil this.. this is the last chance! hehe..

i still am thinking if i should accept someone... i'll name him DUDE. Dude is a nice guy and well i guess im giving him a try. well... at least everyone will be happy.. i guess i will be more happy than now too.. yeah i think it's really best this way that im with some new. the past wont come on too much.. haha.. dude can be too irritating sometimes but i like the fact that he understands me.. or at least he tries to=)

he can be too hard too but when he confesses what he feels... my hairs can stand on its ends...!!!
lol... anyway, me and my recent ex.. we're cool as friends and yeah... he's moving on fine and good. i wish him all the best in life. whatever he is undergoing, i hope he get thru it fine. well, i hope that if another girl shud come along to his life, she will take good care of him and he too... anywayz...

studies never really came too tight until now!
Monday - Chemistry Self Study(SS)
Tuesday - Self Study
Wednesday - free time
Thursday - POA SS
Friday - Maths SS
Saturday & Sunday - Relaxation ( either at home or outside )

haiz... *toodles*

2006-07-12T15:35:00.000+08:00

gosh well... today, things go sooo unexpected. i never thought that someone who was my enemy previously, would be taking my shoulders to cry on. i feel sooo sympathetic towards her and obviously now we are good frens. i just wish she will be fine soon. gosh who am i kidding? she wont really heal fast... but haiz im here for her and i noe she knows that. breaking up is never easy.. esp wen you've shared your greatest and worst days with the same person for a very long time running. now... everything has fallen apart. i know he still care for her but he doesnt know what he wants. he cant settle his heart to one. im sorry to say that sometimes, shit happens. he's a good guy in many other ways but when it comes to this, he's muddled. both parties are close to me. esp the guy but since am a girl, i'm more sympathetic towards her. furthermore, we can relate to each other better because i myself had recently went thru a break up... of which i dont really know if it's a permanent one or a cooling off period... but now as i've told her, her studies have to come first. i hope that she doesnt flunk her O levels because of this. haiz... i really hope the best for everyone out there... even for myself.. i get confuse with things abt my ex too but i know that it's not of a greater importance as compared to my studies. if we're meant to be back again then i guess there's no harm trying... for now, i dont see any light cos i guess i myself may not really know what i want. just lyk that guy fren of mine..... he doesnt know what he want and that's why it is like this with them both... i wonder though... if my ex and i really did have a REAL thing on... hmms... *toodles*

2006-07-10T20:56:00.000+08:00

well.. today was really tiring. first was because of the world cup... but yay! italy was victorious! viva italia man... but zidane's soooo off man... headed materazzi man!!haha...
anyway, cannavarro was really suave... well, so was de rossi. at least he got to play today... haha.. yeah... yawnnn... me and hajar watched at salihin's place and well there were only four of us.. me,hajar,salihin and xing gui... hmms.. before and after the match i played xbox soccer with xing gui! he bully me xia.. asswipe! haha.. but hey at least my defense tight man... haha..
well, at around 6am, hajar and i left salihin's house. we reached at ard 6.30am and by the time we tucked into bed was almost 7am. and guess wat? i received two damned msgs within 30mins and that 30 mins was the only time i actually geta slp proply... well... anyway.. gona go off now...! haiz...

p.s. i think it's best for the silence to just prevail now. my feelings are so muddled... haiz...

2006-07-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

yoooo hooooo... haha... gosh....
today, i only slept for ONE HOUR den i went to sch... well... it's world cup fever.. gd fren jas stayed up with me on the phone, watching the FRANCE VS PORTUGAL match!!
we're both on the same sides... my mum was watching too!! haha.. she FRANCE SIDE!!!
BUT i still think if Portu never made a stupid mistake, they will have a higher chance of winning!!! Damn Xing Gui really like me eating my words!! haha.. He's an idiot!!(Dude! England lost doesnt mean u can condemn the rest leh...)
Haha.. anyway, this world cup is really memorable!! haha...
but damn hafta wait till 2010 for like my so called click to be able to watch together and scream ourselves silly... lol..
well... haiz... i hate emotional distress!! i oso duno why i feel so laden with these emotions... haiz... but it affects me at the minimal.. i think.. depends if i getta push it away... hmms... sooo must study more.. so i wont feel these nonsense...!!! hahahahaha...
Sweet dude! this sat... hahaha... hmmss... *winks*

2006-07-05T17:19:00.000+08:00

OMG! I had my Malay O level oral exams and man was i trembling like shit!!! goodness really. i never thought that other malay teachers could be soo intimidating. my fist two conversation topic was a goner but the third one was the one i really hope saves me. gosh... i was really in need of a very LONG and TIGHT hug but hell... it was inavailable.. but thank goodness my good galfrens are der to gimme hugs!! haha.. tho it dun feel the same but i was in need of destressing..! aniwae, if i were to achieve a B4 for my malay. i will be happy already. gosh.. and now... my poa needs my attention.. haha.. to come to think of it, not just poa but also the rest of the other subjects..!! haha.. gosh... i need english(duh), maths(another duh),combined science, humanities or poa.. haha.. wana go for Tourism... hopefully i even make it in life... haha... i do wonder if mass comm would be ideal for me.. well, im not really concretely sure... i also have a wild thought of trying interior design. haha.. hmms.. i am quite certain however, which poly i hope i will qualify for. since last time ive actually hope to enter SP... hmms... the tourism there provides overseas opportunity soo that kinda attracted me there more. but there's just something with the school.. but then again... TP is seducing me to change my mind. haha... my godbros and other friends are sooo there and also if things go bad bt sum stuff.. i dun think it'll be wise to choose SP.. BUT THEN AGAIN... if it's meant to be.. then i will be there!! yay!! haha..
*toodles*

2006-07-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

whole entire weekend, i stayed home. i was suppose to go out and meet my long time god sis, farhana but she fell sick. anyway, she and i go back since primary school. she's one of my charges. haha.. well, what do you expect, im protective towards my sisters. anyway, i was looking forward to seeing her again but hell it got postponed. im really getting bored. and soon the more i get bored, nonsense issue will come up again! it's a standard thing to expect about me. haiz..
anyway, time is catching up with me and man, my o levels are fast approaching and it's getting on to me. I NEED MOTIVATION!!!
i am hoping that things will clear soon. i feel soo down with something that i am not pretty sure about..
anyway,i hope it will clear soon... sooo i can like get back to the right track. i can only survive confuse for a period of time. resilience is the secret.. haha... anyway, hope for the best, prepare for the worst... haha... it will reveal itself when it is meant to be... *toodles*

2006-07-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

THE MOST DISAPPOINTING MOMENTS FOR BRAZIL FANS LIKE ME WAS ZIDANE'S SUPERB FREE KICK... AND THE FINISHING BY THIERRY HENRY...

SUCH AN OPENING HAS UNDENIABLE OUTCOME. NOTHING WILL BE MUCH SADDENING THAN THE SLIPPING CROWN AND GLORY OFF THE CHAMPIONS. BRAZIL BRAZIL... MY SUPPORT WILL NEVER DIMINSHED. VICTORY WILL COME FORTH ON 2010..

IT'S SOOOO DAMN SICKENING... HAIZ.. I SHOULDNT HAVE SAID ANYTHING! HAHA... LOL..
JAS SHOULD KNOW BT THAT... HAHA... OH WELL, IT'S DONE.
HONESTLY, WHEN I SEE BRAZIL PLAY, I FEEL A SENSE OF HUGE DISAPPOINTMENT.. *sobs*
COMPARED TO WORLD CUP 2002.. THEY REALLY DEPROVE! HAIZ...
ANYWAY, HAIZ...

(victorious- when rivaldo was still around...)

PORTUGAL WILL THEN MEET FRANCE. IT MAYBE POSSIBLE FOR FRANCE TO BE DEFEATED BUT THAT WILL BE UP TO HOW PORTUGAL PLAY THEIR DEFENCE.. BUT WITH A SUPERB GOALKEEPER.. THERE'S NO SAYING PORTUGAL WONT MAKE IT TO FINALS..

(THE BEST PERFORMED KEEPER IVE SEEN SO FAR)

GERMANY MAY CLINCH THE CUP THIS YEAR... BUT IM AGAINST THAT. MAYBE PORTUGAL... HMMZ... IF PORTUGAL BEATS FRANCE.. THEN IT WILL LOOK GOOD ALREADY...
BUT VIVA LA BRAZIL... HAIL THE ROYALTIES... FOR THE LAST TIME... TILL THE NEXT MOMENT AGAIN(=

HAIZ.. *TOODLES*

2006-07-02T02:49:00.000+08:00

HELLO.. GOSH.. I CANT WAIT FOR THE MATCH TO START.. BRAZIL VS FRANCE.. WILL HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF? GOODNESS.. I HOPE NOT... FRANCE CANNOT WIN THIS MATCH!! NEVER! BRAZIL ALL THE WAY MAN.
PORTUGAL WAS VICTORIOUS OVER RNGLAND AND MAN WAS I ESCTATIC! HAHA! I WAS PUTTING MY MIND TO THE GAME. RICARDO IS A SUPER GOOD GOAL KEEPER! EVEN BETTER THAN DIDA! ANYWAY, IZZUL LOST THE BET.. HEHE.. (OH WELL, MAYBE NEXT TIME AITE?) LOLZ..
GOSHY GOODNESS!! IM SOO GONNA BE BURNED OUT SOON.. IM GETTING LETHARGIC MAN! YAWWNN.. BUT MUST STAY AWAKE FER BRAZIL! HAHA.. GONA HAFTA CALL JAS TO WAKE HIM UP SOON!! *TOODLES*

2006-07-01T13:20:00.000+08:00

ohh gosh... here it comes again...
have you ever beeen in a situation whereby the best thing to do is to just forget about every promises made to you or by you, cos for one it doesnt seem relevant to your eyes anymore.. as to what the reasons might be, you just cant form any in your mind because somehow that's what your heart's telling you to do. no matter how stubborn you want to be, just hanging on to the idea just dont suit you anymore.
there are times when we ppl start to outgrow things that we appreciate a lot and have grown used to. never at all do we expect that it will all turn out the wrong way. in a matter of time, we will be shown the light to everything... i believe that strongly. that's why no matter how i see the situation in a good or bad angle, i really think that there's more to what lies at the front of everyone. no one likes to be hurt but it's an inevitable phenomenon in our lives.. whether or not we like it, we will go through it. recovery is the best key to getting out of hurt. soo in order to stand a chance in this world, we should learn the art of fast recovery....

p.s. everyone goes through hell in this living world. just break free ....

2006-06-30T17:05:00.000+08:00

Name: Daryl Keith
Age : 19
membership name : boy DOL mat!
member of : D.O.L society(head of DOL of the DOL)

hahaha... gosh...
in case ur wondering why i did HIS profile... well he deserve the tittle of being a clown! he really is.. haha... ermz... MY CLOWN.. at least D.O.L's clown... hahahaaha...
i just got off the phone with him and as i think of our earlier conversation, i cant help but laugh. sorrry D.. if u c this... just be proud of me aite? at least i not ashame to let everyone know that even though ur a CLOWN.. the D.O.L society accepts u.. I accept you.. haha..
anyway everyone... you can ignore this entry if u must.. haha.. am just letting off my laughter in a much expressive way..

*to be continued .....

2006-06-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

i got home late.. haha... soo yeah... its a good thing that i did my maths in school. but my poa is still unsettled... gosh im so gonna flunk my poa fer this fri test. haiz...
well, i went to haig road to change earpiece and met up with daryl.. we just slacked at his grand uncle's place. we all call him buddha.. i dont remember who started that but i guess it was cos of his belly. haha. he's a funny man... and i like talking to him when he's not in a funny mood. oh well...
i went back home before ryan and daniel came over. hmmms it isnt that good having them see me with daryl at buddha's place.. all the nonsense will come.. i didnt really quite mind cos i was quite used to it but daryl was kinda concerned about it.. and also i dont want another round of 'VIBRATING BUDDHA'.. i dont think i'd want to be in buddha's black list.. haha... almost made it there.. thankz to daryl, jas, daniel and ryan last month!!! haha.. but oh well..
anyway, been kinda long since i've seen buddha also but i din buy him teh.. haha... another day then if i'm gona visit again or something.. it is a good thing that daryl and i didnt quarell.. hmms.. at least nothing came up today to make me pissed off.. he was sooo cute!! haha lyk a small boy when we were soo called debating... haha... niwae, overall i had a GREAT day! haha... hmms... in private will the reason be kept.heeees.. *winks* hmms..
been quite long, i thought i forgot how the art of it.. haha.. oh well, things kinda turning out fine b/w me n daryl.. somehow, i hope this will last then. as in friendly and all, no more cold shoulder treatment..! yups... hees..
aft i met daryl, i met jas fer a short while to pass him the cd.. yeps.. last night jas n i quarelled.. haiz.. but now it's fine lah... yups... haha...
*yawwn*... i WANT my "mattress" and "pillow"... haha.. i WANT my bear!!!! hahaha...
to u ppl out there...
there are things that wont and will never make sense to you till the time is right and it is meant to happen. to matter how badly you want it, it will only come when the moment is ripe... yeaps... things will just unfold itself. sooo just go with the flow.. and be merry... yeaps... *toodles*

2006-06-27T18:48:00.000+08:00

well well... sch has commenced and workloads are starting to pile up on me again...(AS USUAL) O-levels malay oral with be coming on soon. i slot is next wednesday. i really hope for the best. i dont wana re-take the subject again.. just thinking abt exams make me for irritable soo let's not further the topic...
well, i got back from school quite awhile ago and i am soo shag.. to think of it, i actually slept in history class for two periods and i was suppose NOT to do that. Humanities is one of the subject that is relevant for Tourism study. Gosh..
the reason for this tiredness was the conference call that was not supposed to actually go pass 12am. damn it.. but it was really hilarious.. kinda for once in sucha long time, daryl and i talked and teased.. and i tell you, i was soooo sabotaged by Nurul AND Jas... Nurul failed as my lawyer! and she actually kinda started the questions!! well it's a funny awakening for me. daryl was sooo excited bt the answer to come out but eventually it saddened me to hear his voice in THAT kinda way... haiz... haha... i hope that he dont assume anything.. he hasnt replied me YET since last night!! and i wonder if we're back again to the cold shoulder treatments.. haiz.. well... contradictions got the worst of me last night.
but the most weird part was the fact that all this while, this issue didnt pop out until yesterday 26/6... 26th! well, the members of DOL and some close dudes n babes knows bt the date issue.. and by the time daryl just hung up, it was 27th! gosh.. (NURUL coincidence man!!)
anyway, mi amor... (u noe la huh y im calling you this) do you really need that kind of assurance? hmmms.. oh well... then i'll think of something...
---------------------------------....everyone....--------------------------------
you ppl out there just have to learn to just be straight and honest sometimes... dont let an opportunity to be honest pass you by... cos like me, i'll never know if there'll be that time again when i can really just let mi amor know what's in my corazon... heees... yawwn... oryty ppl... *toodles*

2006-06-25T22:05:00.000+08:00

well... i woke up 1pm today and i would have slept on if daryl hadnt called me. i was freaking shock! the damn phone was right by my ear and my phone rang at the max volume! gosh... anyway, i guess i gotta silence my phone whenever i sleep late the night before..

today, the plan is all about PHONES! and well, i met up with achap to get the new set of N6260. kinda traded my silver N6260 i got a week or so ago for a black one. oh well, soo yeah, achap oso managed at last to change his N6600. and he was elated because finally he can use his mp3 songs for ringtones. haha.. the same elation i had when i got it! haha.. he got the silver one. there were some unsettled sadness somehow b/w me and achap abt the phone... haha.. and it has got to do with my indecisiveness.. haha.. (dude sorry aite? i fell in love with it.. haha)BUT it's all fine now.. aft we made a deal!! haha.. and well.. he gon be my bank for the whole sch week... anyway, it will only be me and him who'll know exactly what happened!! haha..

anyway.. daryl oso got his new qd.. sold his to daniel with all the applications. hmms.. haha.. i saw the phone before he did and yeah though it's export, it's quite fine. haha... a virgin phone! lolx..
hmms.. well.. i am soo totally angry.. haha.. my allowance will be gone again! and i only got it yesterday.. to those who know me well.. you'll know why.. right?? haha.. well it's my bill.. it shoot up to $235.. haiz.. i really gonna have to cut down..
hmms kinda thinking of not going with a phone for 2 weeks... hmmms.. still thinking..

anyway, that's about all for today.. oh yeah,i got a new application!! and it's damn cOuTOeL.. (cute n cool).. haha.. well.. gotta go now.. tmr's reopening of sch and am gon hafta get ready... *toodles*

2006-06-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

-written on midnight(still awake now cos jas&i waiting for NURUL to end talking wid her BF)

I really enjoyed today's event! Hahaz.. Today is that day when i kinda embraced temptations.. and only 3 ppl saw me in that state that i never really thought i'll be in. it's a sin and crime but i embraced it. i guess it's time to loosen up and just embrace something that i had never really thought about.... heeheee... and for your info, it isnt S*X!!! haha...it much minor but to me it's kind of an exposure..

today.... daryl, jas and nurul came to my house today and well.... we were the cause that made the date 24th the day of temptation(for us only)... oh well.. i am sooo not gonna say anything in here because i dont wanna embarass myself!! haha.. but overall i had an ok-day with daryl around... it isnt soo bad though... we didnt quarell... it was just that he had to BREAK MY DAMN CRYSTAL FIGURINE BALL!!! gosh.. im sooo hoping that my mum wont kill me for that!!! he really have itchy hands! haiz... well, but nurul didnt do some of the things i did because she told her BF that she wouldnt. haha.. anyway, when the two guys went off somewhere- Jas for family lunch, Daryl for some HP 'business' ... nurul and i were left at my house. i was asleep for quite awhile i guess cos by the time i awoke, daryl and jas were already on the way back to my house. sooo since i was back to normal.. we cooked Nasi Goreng.. i went down to the provision shop to get some ingredients. it's quite a miracle that i actually made it in one piece. hahaz...anyway, they stayed all the way till 8+ pm..
and the ending had to be the worst!! yes, that's when daryl broke by damn house ornament... haiz... gosh...

overall mood: esctatic, crazy, barbaric and more... haha...

oryty.. i gona be heading to dreamland soon aft this.. haaaahhhh... i will have a long day tmr.. (i mean today, later on in the aft)... yawwwnn...

2006-06-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

am really sooo pissed today. the initial plan was to meet jas n daryl to study. i was suppose to teach jas maths and all. den it changed tremendously. jas ended up not coming... daryl ended up spoiling my day... and i got pissed fer nothing. daryl and i are in war.. i dont know what's been happening lately and i dont think i even wanna bother so much. i was on the verge of just chucking him in the deepest closet but something came up. (like duh i wont sae it here.. only my confidant knows!) i dont know what the hell his intentions in doing what he's oing. if my hunch be right, then i guess he's succeeding... 70% victory. oh well... it's like that he wants den let it be like that then.. at least i didnt break my promise.........
things are blurry right now.. my are frustrations fresh and it wont go away yet.. soon it will but wen it is, it wont come back. i have done that over and over. i succeeded before so what make it soo special this time that i wont? soo i obviously will........
if you're reading this ( n u noe hu u r), i want you to know that i never thought that i'd regret giving you the heart that dont easily fall... but for you once upon a journey in life, my heart was stolen from me.....
all those things i told you, they're are the things that will never escape my mouth unless it's true..
anyway... i hope you're happy this way cos im giving it to you the way you like it...
hmms... n i dont believe that i loosen up my grip that's why u disappear... cos i never did... i held on....(enuf of you... now to address you all)
*love is the most complicated thing that could ever happen to anyone. whether you want it or not it will come. and when it come it can be the most happiest moment or the worst torture of your life. those who had only been touched by it once before be wary and careful... or you may end up like me being so caught up and confuse when it ends...

to you all out there... love the best u can now... cos when u lose it... der's no shortcut in love...

2006-06-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

today i woke up in the afternoon feeling so tired and sickly. the soccer matches are taking it's toll on me somehow. though i didnt really see all the matches but hell i saw Holland VS Argentina and i was soo freaking tired aft that. i went over to khalid's house with a big grp of frens. yups... umm... hajar, salihin, xingui, christopher, yaqien, achap... den got many more. khalid's mum ordered pizza fer the grp and before the match we played PS games and watched horror movies. not of which really scared the light outa me.. anyway it was just thrilling. but i am damn exhausted somehow but hell at least i still made it back home. haha... oh well...

i hit the bed at 7am. and i woke up at around 2pm... i pulled myself outa bed cos i had to meet achap. he wanted to change his N6600 to N6260... haha.. same like mine!!! aniwae, the dude at the handphone shop is soooo good!! lol... anyway, gonna be changing my N6260 fer a new set.. we shall see how it goes... i was suppose to meet jas to study but he caught flu!!! haiz... aniwaez... it was postpone to tmr and yeps ... but hell im sooo blood-sucked man!!! some ppl just HAD to do their damn techniques!!! arrrgghh...

anyway, am sooo gonna slp now!!!

2006-06-21T00:14:00.000+08:00

well well.. haha.. it was quite fun der at sentosa!! at harbourfront foodcourt, hajar got the traditional birthday bash.. haha.. it was all over her and all.. lolx..

anyway, it wasnt that happening actually because there wasnt any event there which means that there aint any cuties.. haha.. the birthday girl says so too.. well not that we're despos but hell obviously, single girls will end up looking out fer guys. actually, when the four of us we're making our way to siloso beach, four guys passed us, jogging. at first they look hot la actually BUT when i saw the flabby chest, we all agree to change our minds. haha.. chest are quite important noe.. not too soft, and not too hard. lols.. haha..

hmms.. we swam there and me, haj and ling got buried in the sand.. goodness oh well, the damn sand is sooo heavy.. as if someone is like lying on top of me.. goodness.. been long since i got buried in the sand.. haha.. we took loads of videos and damn those vids are HORRIBLE!! if anyone sees them, well, it's all lameness!!

well.. my day today overall was really not filling... i dont know why but my visit to sentosa today isnt that much fun as compared to my previous visit.. haha... today as haj laughed and smiled, i think she is still hoping for something ... her eyes says it all.. if im wrong then that wud mean that i lack in knowing her fully. yups.. i think me and my clique has one thing in common in a wish... TO BE HAPPY WITHOUT A PRICE.. yups..

anways enuff of this emotions... ! here are the pictures we took!! at lst some of them...

the craziness of life!!

damn they're heavy!!

+gosh... how come the pics wit bikini cant be loaded!!+
oh well... sistas!! too bad........

p.s. i really cherished today cos somehow when the O levels are here.. it will be gone and soon we all will be saparated.. haiz.. either we make it or not to poly, we're all gonna be separated. though i will make time you gals!! i will and thats a solemn promise... !!! well.. toodles fer now.. am gonna slp soon...

2006-06-20T12:19:00.000+08:00

hello hello... well.. i really hope it dun rain anytime me and my sistas are enjoying by the beach! we're going sentosa! yay!
been quite awhile since i went der and haha... (Izzul, we'll see if what you say comes true k?) haha.. lol.. well... hmms... it's gonna be a long and great day fer the four of us! as in me, hajar, hidayah and mei ling.. yup! 4 sistas out.. 3 singles and 1 attached! lol.. haha.. aniwae.. i'll update ya'll at night aite!! i havent even bathe yet.. lol.. haha.. kkz.. *toodles*

2006-06-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

MORNING TILL NOON: MATHS CAMP ... TOPIC-BY-TOPIC REVISION ... HAIZ... I HAD MR NG SONG SENG AND MR PHILIP LEE. SIMILAR & CONGRUENT TRIANGLES AND GRAPHS RESPECTIVELY. HAIZ.. I DONT KNOW IF I CAN EVEN MAKE IT! HAIZ... MAKE IT TO POLY.. EVERYTHING SEEMS SUCH A BLURR NOW.. I HOPE THE FOG WILL CLEAR SOON.. LEST IT IS TOO LATE...
I FEAR FAILURE AND SO DO YOU ALL...

FAILURE IS EVERYWHERE.
AND NO MATTER HOW MUCH WE TRY NOT TO SUCCUMB TO THOSE FAILURES, ALL WE CAN DO IS HOPE FOR THE BEST FATE CAN GIVE. YUPX. I'VE LEARNT LOTS FROM THE PAST 17 YEARS OF MY LIFE. SINCE I WAS YOUNG, I TRY TO SEE THINGS FROM HOW OTHERS PPL FEEL. I'VE TRY TO SEE EVERY LESSONS FROM EVERY ANGLE...
EITHER FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCES OR FROM OTHERS WHO HAS CONFIDED IN ME. SOMETIMES THOSE STORIES I HEARD FROM MY PEEPS JUST MAKE ME RE-THINK ABT THE WAY OF LIFE. PART OF ME APPRECIATES THE FACT THAT I'M SOMEWHAT MUCH PRIVELLEGED AND ANOTHER PART OF ME JUST WANNA HELP THEM AS MUCH AS I CAN. NO MATTER HOW BAD THE SITUATION HAD BEEN FOR THEM. I HAVE LEARNT TO BELIEVE THAT EVEN THE SLIGHTEST AID MIGHT ACTUALLY LIFT OFF THEIR BURDEN. HAIZ... HOWEVER, IT'S ALWAYS A SAD THING THAT SOME PROBLEMS HAS NO HELP AT ALL. NO MATTER HOW MUCH ADVISE I HAVE GIVEN THEM. YUPS. ALL I CAN DO IS TO PLAY MY PART TO LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND UP TO WHAT I CAN. IM HAPPY TO KNOW THAT THEY APPRECIATE THE WORDS THAT I PASSED ON TO THEM. THOSE WORDS THAT I'VE LEARNED FROM MY ELDERS, SUPERIORS AND ADVISES FROM ARD ME. THINGS THAT NOT MANY PPL REALLY SEE PROPERLY. I HAVE MY WEAKNESSES THOUGH AND IT'S THE FACT THAT I CANT REASON WITH MYSELF. EVEN THOUGH IN MY MIND, I KNOW HOW SITUATIONS MAY DEVELOP, I PUSH IT AWAY AND I PREFER TO ASSUME THE NEGATIVE. SOMETIMES THE ANSWER MAY LIE RIGHT AT MY FACE BUT I FORCE MYSELF TO GO IN DENIAL AND JUST REFUSE TO SEE HOW MUCH GOODNESS THERE IS AROUND ME. I'VE SOMEWHAT OVERCOME THAT BUT I STILL HAVE OTHER WEAKNESSES AND I KNOW THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED, I STILL CANT ADVISE MYSELF. IT'S HARD REALLY. BECAUSE I'M USE TO REASON OUT HINTS AND SOLVE PROBLEMS OF OTHERS INSTEAD OF MY OWN. SO YEAH. THAT'S SOME OF THE REASONS WHY ALTHOUGH I MAYBE GOOD WITH ADVISING OTHERS, IM DEAF TO THOSE WORDS THAT I HAVE PARTED UNTO OTHERS.... IT AFFECTS OTHERS BECAUSE IF I SEE THINGS THE WRONG WAY THEN IT'S OVER. BUT GOOD THAT I HAVE GOD AND MY PEEPS TO REMIND ME OF THOSE ADVISES...

2006-06-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of at the top your head. Dont read the Questions before you write. Tag 5 people to do this survey.

1.Daryl Keith
2.Nurul
3.Jasvender
4.Hajar
5.Hidayah
6.Mei Ling
7.Ryan Ashley
8.Mohd Daniel
9.Venga
10.Kumares
11.Prem
12.Izzul
13.Nas
14.Sayang Ana
15.Salihin(tinggi)
16.Firdaus
17.Qarihah
18.Khalid
19.Hafiz
20.Hidayat

How did you meet #14?
-She's my sister.. when my mum pops her out?

What would you do if you had not meet #1?
ookay?? y so fated one?.. hmmm... miss out on really loving someone? hees..

What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
-I'll laugh like mad!!! haha!!!

would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
-well... if they ever tot of turning lesbian? nah.. they dun noe each otr!

Describe #3.
-He's one hell of a FERRARI snorer! haha.. he's a nice guy who is loyal to his friends!

Do you think #8 is attractive?
-Umm... guy attractive? haha... umm.. no comments.. hahahahaha...

Tell me something about #7?
-He's no. 1's brother and he was the ex of two of my godsisters!

Do you know anything about #12 family?
-He has a brother? yup... and his dad has passed on... (pbwh)

what's #10 favourites?
-Hot Girls? haha...

what would you do if 11 confess that he/she like you?
Prem?? haha.. i'll slap his face.. his my godbrother damn it! haha

what languages do #15 speaks?
Malay.English.HIndi wannabe? haha... lol

who is #9 going out with?
-I dunno... He's a known player..

How old is #16?
16 goin on 17? i think so...

when was the last time you talked to #13?
Since i got turned off...

who is #2 favourite song?
haiya.. got a lot.. haha.. now it's Unfaithful by Rihanna

would you date #4?
haha.. no damn it she's a girl! even if she keep wanting to b a les! lol

would you date #7?
haha.. maybe when hell breaks lose.. he's not my type! gosh...

is #15 single?
Hell no.. he's in a long-term r'ship!

what is 10 last name?
s/o of sumone... haha.. gosh i cant believe i dont know! haha

would you ever consider being in a relationship with 19?
He's my ex.. n NO not ever again! gosh!

what school do 3 go?
St. Pat Sec SCH

where do 6 live?
Bedok.

what is your favourite thing about 5?
She can stand my damn attitude and love my lameness! haha.. sistas-4-life! haha

what do you think of 18?
He's a nice, hilarious, assholic guy.

what do 4 and 19 have in common?
When they irritate me.. it's to the fullest!

what special qualities does 18 hold in your life?
haha... he's a funny fren! haha..

i tagged: Izzul, Sheena, Yew Chye, Nurul, DInisha

2006-06-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

NEVER GO OUT TODAY.. AM STILL SICK..*SOBS* OH WELL.. LIKE I SAID I'M GETTING SICKLY AGAIN.. ANYWAY..
TODAY'S ENTRY, I'D LIKE TO THANK THE PEEPS OUT THERE WHO CARES FOR ME LOADS.. ALSO TO YOU IZZUL.. YOU'RE A NICE GUY AND THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING MY SITUATION.. I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT EVEN AT SUCH A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME, YOU'RE READY TO BE THERE AND LISTEN.. EVEN IF SOMETIMES I CHOOSE TO KEEP TO MYSELF, YOU UNDERSTAND. LIKE I SAID YOU'RE SWEET! HAHA... THERE ARE JUST THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I AM NOT SURE I SHOULD TELL YOU BUT TODAY YOU PROVED TO BE THERE. HAHA.. AND GOOD THING THAT YOU'RE NOT ONE OF THOSE GUYS I KNOW WHO RUSH TO THINGS! YUPS! I KNOW YOU'RE READING THIS AND GOING.. AWWWW... HAHA... BUT YEAH HAHA.. BUT LIKE WAD I TOLD YOU BT THAT ENTRY? HAHA.. IT'S STILL SUMHOW GETTING ON ME. BUT HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT.. YOU'RE A GOOD FREN!
BUT MY SAYANGS TO THE MAX... NURUL! HAHA.. YOU'RE ALWAYS THERE TO LISTEN TO MY CRAPS AND JAS! THANKS FOR OPENING UP MY EYES AND GOT ME TO STOP ASSUMING ALL THE NEGATIVE! WELL THINGS ARE GOING SOMEWHAT OK..YUPS.. (I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY...AND HOPING YOU ALL THE BEST) NIWAES.. TO HAJAR AND HIDAYAH.. YOU BIYTCHES ARE THE BEST DISTRACTIONS FROM IT ALL.. ALTHO WEN WE QUARRELL LA HUH? HAHA.. BUT WELL.. WE LOVE EACH OTHER ENOUGH TO CHUCK THAT ASIDE WAD RYT? HAHA.. TT'S SOO LES.. EWWW.. HAHA..
ERMZ.. TO THOSE WHO DUNNO JUST GO ON NOT KNOWING AITE.. THANKS..
WELL.. DARLING FRENS.. TRUST THAT I'LL BE THERE JUST AS YOU GUYS ARE THERE FER ME..
AND I HOPE YOU DO KNOW TOO THAT IM STILL HERE WHEN U CALL OUT FOR ME!

+HUGS&KISSES+

2006-06-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

AM VERY SICK TODAY. WELL IT STARTED IN THE AFTERNOON. I DONT KNOW WHY BUT I THINK I'M GETTING SICKLY AGAIN. I WAS REALLY FINE LATELY BUT NOW... I GOT FLU BUGGED! WELL I WENT OUT STILL COS A PART OF ME WANTS TO GO OUT AND SHOW OFF MY NEW HIGH HEELS I BOUGHT LAST WEEK! SO I CALLED ON HAJAR AND WE DECIDED TO GO BUGIS AND GET BIKINI TOPS FOR THIS FORTHCOMING TUESDAY! WE'LL BE CELEBRATING HER BDAE AT SENTOSA..SISTER'S DAE OUT cum HAJAR'S 16TH BIRTHDAY! OH YA AND WE WONT BE GOING TO MOS!HAHA.. ANIWAES THE COMICAL PART OF TODAY'S NIGHT OUT WAS THAT WE DRESSED UP ONLY TO BUY BIKINI TOPS! I KNOW, I KNOW! WELL SO WHAT? HAHA.. JUST TO STRESS THE DRESS UP PART.. HAJAR WORE A DRESS! I WORE FLOWING TUBE TOP ACCOMPANIED BY A TURQUOISE SCARF! WITH MY TURQUOISE HEELS! THOSE WHO KNOW WHICH IT WAS.. YES! THAT'S HOW CRAZY WE WERE JUST NOW.. EVEN HAJAR AND I LAUGHED AT EACH OTHER WHEN WE MET UP! LOL..
HONESTLY, IM GETTING SICK OF MY MSN! THE DAMN VIRUS IS SO F**K UP.. I SCAN MY FILES AND COMPUTER BUT IT ISNT DETECTED BUT THE WINDOWS KEEP POPPING, SENDING SOME F*** UP FILES TO OTHERS! DAMN THE PERSON WHO PASSED THAT TO ME!

WELLS... SCHOOL'S GONNA START SOON AND EXAMS ARE GOING TO COME ALREADY. HAHZ.. WELL IT'S REALITY CHECK NOW EVERYONE WHO'LL BE TAKING O LEVEL AT YEAR END. EVEN I CANT KEEP UP WITH IT BUT NO CHOICE MAN.. HAFTA PUSH ASIDE EVERYTHING AND JUST LOOK FORWARD WITH ALL THE COURAGE WE CAN MUSTER. HAIZ..

+HUGS&KISSES+

2006-06-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

TODAY I SLEPT LATE AGAIN... GOSH.. WELL TODAY IS JAS' BIRTHDAY... ME AND NURUL WERE THE FIRSTS TO GREET HIM. WE SANG FOR HIM HAPPY BDAE SONG AND HE WAS OBVIOUSLY APPRECIATIVE! ANYWAY, I WOKE UP AT 12 NOON AND WENT ONLINE FOR AWHILE.. USUAL ROUTINE! WAKE UP.. ONLINE.. BATHE.. DO HOMEWORK.. SEE IF I GOT MOOD TO GO OUT DEN I WILL.. REACH HOME, FRESHEN UP AND THEN GO ONLINE ALL THE WAY TILL THE TIME MY MUM STARTS TO NAG..
WELL THIS JUNE HOLIDAY IS REALLY BORING.. BUT I DONT MIND IT AT ALL. I FEEL REALLY LAZY LATELY.. HMMS.. WELL, MOST OF THE TIMES AT HOME COS IM HAVING A LOW PROFILE FEVER.. LOLX.. NO LAH IT'S MORE TO NO ONE HAS ASKED ME OUT OR FOR THE LEAST FACT THAT NO ONE IM INTERESTED IN GOING OUT WITH HAS ASKED.. HEESS.. OH WELL.. SINCE LAST THREE WEEKS YAW!! N MAN... I DONT MIND.. THAT'S KINDA WEIRD BUT HECK I GUESS MY MOOD HAS SWUNG TO A DIFFERENT SIDE OF TASTE. HAHAX..
ANYWAY... HAJAR'S BIRTHDAY IS FAST APPROACHING AND SHE REALLY NEARLY MADE ME BLOCK HER FRM MSN. HAHA.. WELL I STILL HAVENT SUMMONED ENOUGH MOOD TO GO MOS THIS SUNDAY. AND THAT WAS THE TOPIC THAT MADE ME KINDA PISSED. I OSO DUNNO WHY SO BUT I THINK MY MOOD SWING NEED REPROGAMMING.. SHE SAID SHE WANA GO AS OUR FREN CAN GET US VIP TIX BUT IN THE END.. SHE SAID IT'S A WASTE OF $ AND THEN SHE SAID IF I WANNA GO SHE DONT MIND GOING. SO I WAS CONFUSE AND I DONT LIKE THAT. HAIZ. OUR DEAR GODSIS LING WAS ALSO KINDA CAUGHT UP.SHE OBVIOUSLY WANTS TO GO..I'M GOING FOR HAJAR AS SHE WANA CELEBRATE HER BDAE DER.. THO I MUST ADMIT.. I'M STILL NOT SO UP IN MY SYSTEM OF RE-SOCIALING.AFT THE PREVIOUS MOS PARTY, I REALISE SOMETHING AWEFULLY AWAKENING. AND I'M AFRAID THAT IT WILL COME ON AGAIN. HAIZ.. BUT ANYWAY.. IT'S STILL NOT CONFIRM. I HAVENT CONFIRM WID DEM IF I AM GOING OR NOT. SO YEAH.. WE'LL SEE IF IM UP AND ACTIVE TOMORROW!!

2006-06-15T00:37:00.000+08:00

THIS IS FOR YOU...
IM NOT BE THE MOST INTELLECTUAL BEING IN THIS WORLD AND I MAKE MISTAKES LIKE ANY OTHER HUMAN BEINGS. I SAY THINGS THAT MAY HURT YOU AND YOUR PRIDE. BUT YOU SHOULD KNOW BY NOW THAT DEEP DOWN, YOU'RE SOMEONE THAT I WILL NEVER HOPE TO HURT. YOU'RE ONE WHOM I CHERISHED AND I HOPE THAT YOU KNOW THAT. DAYS THAT I CONFIDE IN YOU ARE THE TIMES THAT I FEEL THAT YOU ARE ACTUALLY THE REMEDY OF IT ALL. YOU'RE ONE OF THOSE WHO TAKE ME AWAY FROM REALITY TO THE PLACE THAT ONLY OUR WISHES APPLY.. NEVER HAD I THOUGHT THAT YOU WILL TAKE TO HEART THOSE THINGS THAT YOU KNOW I SHOULDNT MEAN. I TRIED TO TELL YOU THAT YOU SHOULD LET ME KNOW ABOUT THINGS. LIKE WHAT YOU TOLD ME BEFORE... (REMEMBER THAT DAY WE WENT TO BUKIT TIMAH NATURE RESERVE?) YOU TOLD ME THAT IF I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE I LET YOU KNOW? WELL IT'S SOMETHING LIKE THAT I MEAN.. THAT U SHOULD TELL ME IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY. BUT TIMES CAME AND WENT BUT ALL THE TIMES YOU LET ME KNOW ONLY WHEN YOUR EATEN UP WHOLE. HOW DO I SAVE YOU FROM THAT IF YOU DONT EVEN LET ME CURE IT AT THE EARLY STAGES? TILL NOW WE STILL ARGUE ABOUT SOME SMALL THINGS.. TO ME IT IS BECAUSE YOU DONT LET ME KNOW THAT IT ISNT. YOU KEEP IT ALL TO YOURSELF AND YOU EXPECT ME TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE BEING MURDERED. I'M MAY NOT BE THE BEST AT EXPRESSING MY REAL FEELINGS BUT DONT TELL ME THAT TILL NOW YOU DONT KNOW THEM? OR ARE U IN DOUBT? YOU SHOULD KNOW. YOU'RE ONE OF THE SPECIAL THINGS THAT HAD EVER HAPPENED TO ME. YOU'RE THE ONE WHO GOT AWAY ... AND YOU'RE THE REASON THAT I'M WRITING THIS. TO LET YOU KNOW ... THAT YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PERSON AND I WANT TO SEE THAT AGAIN. BEYOND THE FIGHTS AND QUARRELLS. DO YOU EVEN REMEMBER HOW TO SMILE AT ME? AND HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO ENJOY OUR DAY. REMEMBER THAT DAY WE WENT TO GET YOUR BROWN SHOES? THAT KIND OF FEELING.. AND THAT TIME DURING HARI RAYA HAJI BEFORE YOU GOT TO WORK? I HOPE YOU DO REMEMBER. THAT'S ALL...

IF ALL YOU ARE GOING TO SAY IS YOU DONT NEED MY CONSOLATION THEN DONT TELL ME ANYTHING AT ALL...

2006-06-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

after my previous entry last night, i headed to bedok to meet salihin and hajar.. then we went to marcus' place at aquarius condo, to watch soccer!! yay! haha.. it was actually my first time watching out. good thing my dear mum let me out at all.. she knows that i will die2 see Brazil play n apparently she wont have me screaming like a mad woman at home. hee.. hmms.. marcus really took sucha long time to come fetch us four, me,khalid,salihin and hajar. he waited fer him at the tv room and well it was packed! at that point of time, korea was playing against togo. i din really give much heck cos that aint the match that we were greatly anticipating. aniwae.. xingui joined us in awhile wen we were at coffeeshop in wanting to buy food. i was starving like hell! however, the damn shops were closed at that time soo i had to go on without it. aniwae it wasnt that bad.at least can lose weight! hees...
not long after, we were all in marcus' living room, cramped up on the sofa, shivering due to the air-con. we were soo bored watching france vs switzerland that we jus ended up playing bluff. haha.. the most comical part yet was that a cockroach 'visited' us. i never saw anyone so afraid of 'roaches as marcus and khalid!! haha..the moment xingui told us about the 'roach, marcus and khalid jumped off the sofa! haha.. the commotion died down in 15 mins or sumtin.. then we were back again cramped on the sofa. we went the time for brazil's match to come on show, we ordered mcdonald's for late supper or a super early breakfast.. haha.. all of us were starving.. haha.. then.... the most anticipated moment came!! yes....
well all of us tried our best to get comfy on the small sofa.. (salihin, hajar,me,khalid and xingui.marcus was on top the sofa.see pics for info) haha.. it was fun and damn comical! haha! well i pity hajar the most. she was beside salihin and he was farting like mad!(salihin forgive me) lolx! aniwae i was beside khalid and thank GOD he wasnt a fart machine! hahax... we were comfy till marcus slid down in between me and hajar.. so everyone was super crampped. well it was fine after a few minutes as everyone of us repositioned ourselves.(khalid... am sori if i crampped you up!) lolx.. it was really really cold! haha but at least all of us have marcus' comforter on!(well xingui,khalid and i that is) haha.. the game was kind of a disappointment. REALLY! never had i seen an unlively Brazil match. *sobs*
but i had a fun and comical night out! haha...
during the match.. we took pictures here and there.. here are two of them..

the way we all were.gud man salihin sacrificed not being in the pic. n this was before marcus SLID DOWN! HAHA!

me and khalid... and half of marcus!

2006-06-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO... WELL I'M SOO EXCITED FOR TONIGHT'S MATCH!!! BRAZIL VS CROATIA!!!
WELL.. HERE ARE THE OTHER SOCCER DUDES THAT I SPICE UP SOCCER MATCHES FOR ME!

AM KINDA SAD THAT HE'S OFF THE PITCH FOREVER.HAIZ...

HAIL THE SPANISH DUDE..HE'S THE BUENAS OF THE GAME!!WOHOO!!LOVE HIS SIGNITURE AFTER SCORING A GOAL..STYLISH..

BALLAC!! KINDA WASTED HE DIDNT GET TO PLAY FOR THE OPENING MATCH..
BUT NO MATTER..THERE'LL B GAMES AHEAD HE'LL B IN!!

AND A PENDING REQUEST FROM Sweet Izzul..

AM GON HAVE TO REVIEW THIS DUDE'S CAPABILITIES!!!

ORYTY...
+HUGS&KISSES+

2006-06-13T15:47:00.000+08:00

FOOTBALL FEVER IS BACK! THE OPENING MATCH WAS NOT A BAD ONE EITHER.
I WATCHED IT WITH MY GOOD FREN, JAS, OVER THE PHONE AND MAN WE MADE LOADS
OF LAME BLUNDER WITH THE PRONOUNCIATION OF GERMANY'S PLAYER.(WE COULDNT BE BOTHERED WITH COSTA RICA'S COS I DUN EVEN NOE ANYONE FROM DER! ANYWAY.. I WANA SHARE MY FAVOURITE TEAM!!!!

BRAZIL OF COURSE!! MAJORITY OF YOU PPL OUT THERE WILL PREDICT THAT BRAZIL WILL HOLD THE CUP AGAIN!! ARR!!!!! YEAH TT'S THE SPIRIT!

RONALDHIÑO WILL BE THE MAN OF THE MATCH MAN!!! HAIZ..
IF ONLY RIVALDO WASNT SO OLD..
GOSH!! HE WAS GREAT WITH THE BALL!!! LEFT, RIGHT... WOHOO! BUT HE HAVE TO BE AN OLD DUDE!! NO MATTER AT LEAST RONALDHIÑO IS STILL ARD!!!
AND TO THINK OF IT HE HAS BEEN PLAYING SOCCER SINCE HE WAS YOUNG! MAN... HE'S LIKE ONE OF THOSE SOCCER ROYALTY! AND HE'S A BRAZILLIAN! WOHOO!!
LOLZ... SOCCER IS LIKE THE LIFE FOR BRAZILLIANS...

ANYWAY... TO ALL SOCCER FANATICS ! HAPPRY WATCHING!!
TO SOCCER WIDOW AND WIDOWER... DEAL WITH IT... HAIS..
IT'S LIKE THAT...

2006-06-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

i had a really bad day today!!! seriously altho it's bad
at least it's outcome is all fine. hmms.. anyway, someone told me
that today isnt the first bad dae tt i had. i told him lately i've been
having a bad day and he disagreed! he said not just lately but also the otr
tyms tt i called him. then it got me thinking... hmms.. did i actuali looked fer him whenever i had bad day?well i didnt realise and i do feel sorry sumhow. i din mean to jus look fer him whenever am down.i guess in the midst of enjoying, i disregard
that i should also share it with him.
anyway.. yesterday i had a quarell with another guy fren.well it was stupid really but i cant help but be so outraged!whenever i'm angry i lyk to walk away n vent it.
due to tt i dun kip much anger in me cos honestly it's gona be a bad thing the
moment that i kip it to heart. i dunno y but it's like tt. i cant help it...
fer those hu know me well enuf i guess you've experienced my outrage and i sincerely apologise fer tt.i'm not the type hu gets mad for too long a period..one minute im raving mad but later on once i've cooled down i'm good...
sometimes i hate being dis way and i know tt not everyone is lyk me- cools down fast.
i somehow honestly expect the other party to stop being mad at me at the same rate that i stop being mad at them. but somehow this quality is a good thing cos i dun hold GRUDGE against those ppl i had bad terms with...

anyway.. to that particular guy whom i may have really made unhappy... i'm sorry for not taking into consideration the fact that yes sometimes i do need to share the things that made me happy...

orytty!!
+hugs.kisses+

2006-06-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

well...
i've nothing much to do.. oso kinda bored going out..
been out like hell all the previous months..
soo i think it has reeally taken it's toll on me..
niwae.. hello to you all n feel free to leave your comments!!!